Home Again, Home Again

The docs let us come home today. He finally accomplished his checklist and once he did we were out in half an hour. The nurses and doctors were great. They all took really good care of both of us and I'm grateful for that. James is snoozing already in bed and let me tell you, that is one of the greatest thing in the world! I just love him so much!

Thanks for the Nice Thoughts

Thanks to all those who commented about my last post. I'm working at making things better. My kitchen's still messy, but that's because I have an underweight baby who has to eat 6 times a day and loves to make a mess! He is gaining weight, though and hopefully will be back on the chart at his next visit next week. The girls are on a field trip today and I can't wait for them to get home and tell me all about it.

I love you all!

Trying This Out

Windows 7 has this cool new blog feature, so I’m trying it out. Maybe it will help me blog more!

Getting back in the groove?

You know, we go through fazes. I was really into the blog and then I found Facebook and have been obsessed with that lately. Well now I find myself without any tv and will until Tuesday, so I thought I would write on my blog. I doubt anyone even follows it anymore since I stopped writing, but that's how it goes.
Lately I've been really trying to better myself. Sometimes I feel like people see me as pathetic, probably because I am. I am always late...for everything. I don't even know how it happens, but I am always late. My kitchen is always a disaster (except for right now because the Visiting Teachers came over). I feel like I'm always getting passed over. Do you know, except for Activity Days I have never been in charge of anything? I've never been in a presidency of any kind. I don't think that people see me in a leadership role.
I don't know why that is. I'm capable. I have ideas. I try my hardest to complete assignments that are given to me. So to turn the tide, I've decided to start dressing better. I've been buying black pants and button-down shirts instead of tee-shirts and jeans. My mom told me recently that she dresses nice everyday so she's ready for whatever might happen. I like that. Even if my clothes get baby snot on them, like they do right now, at least I have on a nice shirt. I've also heard people say that to be a winner to you have to think like a winner. I have been calling myself a loser for a long time and guess what: I'm a loser! Not really, but I don't amount to much either. I hope this works. If not I'll have a lot of nice clothes with a lot of snot on them. What can you do?

New Pics

Our computer is finally tot (that's German for dead). Luckily we have another computer...kind of. Anyway, we are trying to get back to some sort of normal around here. I have still been working a lot, but I'm not on the schedule, so I get called in the morning. That makes it pretty hard to plan my day let alone a week. LJ is getting so big now. He was drinking 4 oz out of the bottle a few weeks ago and now he can down 10 oz in one sitting. It's quite amazing. He's such a happy and easy going baby. That is such a blessing. The girls are loving school. They are having a great time being at school with the people who live around us. Every day after school they get a snack and then go outside for "study group" with the neighborhood kids. It's awesome.

James is doing better. His pain is a lot less now, but his kidneys are twice the size of a normal kidney. Poor guy. He is managing day to day as best as he can, and so am I.

Doing Better, well I am

Oh boy, since writing that I have had to forget all about myself and take care of my family. My husband was in the hospital for 4 days over last weekend. He has a genetic disorder called Polycystic Kidney Disease. His kidneys are covered with systs. His systs started bursting and his kidneys were bleeding. He also got a huge infection along with it. It was pretty bad and unfortunately there isn't a whole lot they can do to help. I feel so bad for him. So he has been home for almost 2 weeks now because of all this. Also the girls came home from school sick on friday and still are. Luckily LJ and I are still doing ok. More to come, with pictures.

4 Months

I try to always be positive on my blog, but I'm just going to write this tonight and maybe I'll delete it tomorrow. I don't know about anyone else, but four months is the hardest for me. When the baby is four months, I lose the rest of my hormones and that is when postpartum hits for me. My hair falls out and that makes me feel ugly, my hormones are all over the place and I cry all the time. Luckily Little J isn't a big cryer and if he is crying he stops when you pick him up. This has happened for all of my babies and I thought I was prepared for it, but it's still hard. I know I have to get through it. I hope it ends soon. Don't freak out, I'll be ok, just have to get through it.